Getting to do what I want is an option I give myself - it has nothing to do with outside approval. Stay aware of what you are feeling so that you can catch yourself before you make someone else the cause of your emotional state - remember, this is giving your power away. The best conversations are those that you initiate with an open heart and no blame for anyone, including yourself. I preach it, I don't utilize my own affirmations. I really do hate myself and that is why I must raise up the courage to do what I must.