I don't really care about replies, but I wrote this for my family and friends. It has no title because... it just doesn't. I sit in my head... alone. I try to talk, but words Cannot express my pain. I know not what pains me, I wish this to be gone. To be "Normal," But not even you can take away this pain. This pain which you have a part in. You try to get me to talk but don't Listen to what I say. Sometimes I wish I was dead. For then the pain would be gone. No more being alone in my head, No more being alone period. No late nights staying up Crying myself to sleep, Just to dream of you... My worst nightmare. Then waking up. Being all alone again. Repeatedly I ask for help, Your eyes aren't open though. You get angry at my feelings And question why I have them. So I push myself farther away from you. When I sleep, Peace finally comes. I dream of being perfect. Nothing hurts me. Then you come along and Everything becomes twisted, I become twisted. I was once a happy person And you ripped that away. My happiness you stole In your jealous rage. If ever I was happy, You would use angry words, Jealous words to make me sad. And then... I used to talk to you. Thinking you really loved me. You'd talk to me. But then you got angry and hit me. The pain I felt on the outside was nothing... Compared to the pain I felt on the inside. Suddenly everything had changed. You hated me almost as much as I hated myself. When I cry, you make me feel pathetic. Like I don't matter to you. To you, I am nothing. Just there. I try to show you how much you mean to me, But you never see it. I still love you... This pain is suffocating. I try to breathe, I can't. My chest hurts as I try not to cry. I'm isolated from the world around me. You say I can talk to you about anything. But will you listen when I tell you My secret fears? When I tell you how I truly feel inside? Will you still love me? I did try to talk to you... but I couldn't. I didn't want to hurt or look foolish in front of you. The only one person I love, I hurt at the same time. I don't mean to do it... I really don't. I try to stop. I know I hurt you. You think I don't like you Your wrong, I don't just like you. I love you. More than the world itself. My heart only beats because of you. If you were not here, I would have been gone Long ago. I don't ever know how to explain myself to any of you. I want to, But the pain... is intense. The only thing I can do... Helps me, But creates a bigger problem at the same time. It works at the time. But afterwards... Can I still do it? I want to stop. I need help. But I can't talk. So I sit alone inside my head. Locked inside. Talking to no one. But bleeding on the inside. The only thing I can say to all of you.. I'm sorry.