Blocked... its how I feel in life but now H has blocked SF on my laptop I am literally shaking I can't do this anymore I can't live asking permission for everything all the time. I have to ask for money and permission to do anything and now the one place I felt someone cared has been taken away from me. I can't do this thing called life when I cant live or breathe freely. Its thid panic this terror that drove me to it last time. I am scared and panicked I need to go do it tonight. I need it all to stop end. I cant just do SF on my phone I don't know how to work my phone properly. Oh God am I overreacting? I love my kids but what can I give them when I cant stand up for myself let alone them.