Discussion in 'Welcome' started by moko, Feb 15, 2010.

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  1. moko

    moko Active Member

    I extend my hello to anyone who reads this:

    I'm moko, 23yrs student from Ottawa. I came here to find some support that I can't seem to get in the real world. I have been borderline for some time now (9yrs at least), self-diagnosed and unmedicated. I had my fair share of ups and downs over the years and I'm getting annoyed of having 2-3 weeks of feeling good and 2-3 weeks of feeling depressed.
    I hope to find people with who I can talk freely and express the sense of emptiness I feel.
  2. lightbeam

    lightbeam Antiquities Friend

    Welcome aboard moko!

    Hope you find all the spport you need here.

    Coffe and donuts are on the table in the corner.
  3. moko

    moko Active Member

    About the donuts, they better be Tim Horton's:biggrin:
  4. lightbeam

    lightbeam Antiquities Friend

    We have hu8ndreds of types... we can afford not to be choosy.
  5. moko

    moko Active Member

    Yeah, I guess so...
    my favorite is honey glazed.
    I love donuts when I don't feel well so it's convenient I have a TH down my street.
  6. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hey welcome to SF First off i think you should get properly diagnosed by a professional too many diagnosis are so close together only a person with a degree can diagnose. That way you can get the proper treatment to help you feel better maybe your something different like bipolar of something GET a proper diagnosis and get treatment don't suffer when you don't have to okay take care
  7. moko

    moko Active Member

    I know I should go see a psychiatrist or something
    I have been delaying it for years, time being the limiting factor
    Stigma being the second factor.
    I'l see what I can do...I should check out if my current university has quality counselling. My previous college lacked proper therapists...
  8. KittyGirl

    KittyGirl Well-Known Member

    Therapy does help some people... at the very least you need to tell someone how you're feeling.
    Sounds like a rough go to me-- but what you're feeling isn't as odd as you might think. There are lots of other people who feel the same and keep it a secret.
    Just take care of yourself, okay?
  9. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Bonjour...and hope you got to see the olympics as Canada won its first winter gold 2day...and yes, going to a Pdoc and getting the care you deserve is are who you are, diagnosis or not, so why not see if there is help for you...welcome again and please share with us what is going on for you...big hugs, J
  10. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Welcome to the forums!!:wheelchair:
  11. *sparkle*

    *sparkle* Staff Alumni

    welcome to the forums :shake: its nice to meet you :)
  12. moko

    moko Active Member

    Thanks everyone!
    I have started into looking for therapy around here. I'l see to it when the timing will be convenient. For the moment, work makes me free...AKA I'm too busy to even take time to think things through. This is by far one of my best/worse coping mechanisms but it has done well for several years.
    The only thing that sucks these days is that when I go to the campus every morning (I'm during my master's), I feel that my studies give me a sence of purpose in the society. I love what I'm studying (physio) and I am quite an outgoing person but when I come back home, I ''take my mask off'', and become my good ol' recluse self and feel just so empty. Currently, I feel like my life has a direction career-wise but that's all. On a personal level, I don't know where I'm going and I'm not satisfied with where it's going. I make efforts to make friends and to socialise but I always end up becoming the reject because people make me feel like I'm different. After a couple years, I ended up believing in me 'being different' and mostly blamed it on my possible borderline condition...As for consulting, if it was covered by OHIP (medicare in Ontario), I would go immediately but since I'm am sharing a private insurance with my mom, I don't want her to know about this. When I was in grade 10, my family life was shattered when my mom found out I was going to counselling. She told my counsellor that I was making things up for attention. This scared me for life so I don't want my mom to find out that her ever-seemingly happy A+ average daughter is going to therapy...I couldn't bare stand once again all the stigma I faced the first time...
  13. boo

    boo Well-Known Member

    :welcome: I'm from montreal! so what's up neighbor!
  14. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Welcome to the forum :hug:
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