This christmas holiday has been the most depressing holiday I've had in recent memory for a number of reasons. I am 27 and my folks live about 3 hours away from me. Anyway, I have always been one to go back to their place and my hometown and visit quite regularly. But it seems that each time I go back, I have less and less to go back for. My social network of friends is not what it used to be when I lived there (because people move away and fall out of touch of course). I told my mom originally that I would probably stay at their place until new years b/c I had 1 week of vacation time left from my job for '06. But I decided to drive back to my place today in the suburbs (and I hate where I live). Anyway I got so damned depressed this holiday season that today before I left I told my mom that I don't think I'll be coming back to see them very much anymore, that there just isn't much anything for me to come back for anymore. My mom worries alot so I will call her and clarify that yes I will still come back to visit them, but I just don't see myself coming back quite as often anymore. I feel this place is holding me back in my past. I feel that I am viewed as a loser by many family and friends and I don't want to show my face again until I am confident with the direction my life has taken.