Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Abacus21, Oct 8, 2008.

  1. Abacus21

    Abacus21 Staff Alumni

    Currently, at this very moment, I am bored, frustrated with life. Even though I'm sitting here, in my room in the Halls of Residence, with an hour and a half's worth of German tomorrow - a subject which I love and am passionate about, I cannot, at this moment, see a point to it. I want to do something with my life, whatever that may be... and while I'm in the first of four years of doing something that will help me attain a degree that will allow me to make something of my life, that prospect really does not fill me with excitement, happiness or hope at the moment.

    I'm dissatisfied to be sitting here, typing this out, to be honest. I want to do something - anything ... write a novel, create something that will influence people, do something to help people.
    Philosophy and German is what my degree is in - both subjects are ones that I love and enjoy immensely, yet, at this moment, I can see absolutely no point in doing them, if it doesn't help me now.

    I've been reading some blogs about emergency call taking (I like those sort of blogs :tongue: ) - the pay is absolutely crap, but that's what I'd like to be doing at the moment - just to help someone and make myself feel useful....

    I came into university with the hope of shaking off this ''bored-with-life'' feeling that had been hanging over me for the last two or three months, and now it's come straight back.. Like some sort of emotionally stalking boomerang.
  2. Melancholy

    Melancholy Well-Known Member

    I know what you mean, dude. But stay with the course. It's the sort of course that you'll be able to do so much with later on, it's not that specific in that it teaches all sorts of things employers would be looking for.

    I'm thinking about volunteering for the NSPCC, it'd make me feel like I meant something. And you do make a difference, dude. You make a difference to so many people here, and myself. A huggle from you can make a world of difference :smile:

    Keep going. Look for something to do at the same time, volunteering or a job. I know how frustrating that feeling is.

    Huggles. Rock on. :smile:
  3. fromthatshow

    fromthatshow Staff Alumni

    I know how that is. I've often felt, when do I get to start living life.
    You prepare for college which prepares you for a job which prepares you for retirement. We're always preparing and never living.
    If you can't get your heart in your studies at the moment take a break go for a walk. Be in nature for a bit. Do something you enjoy :heart:
    best of luck
  4. Vitreledonellidae

    Vitreledonellidae Well-Known Member

    dont think it has come straight back, maybe its just because of the time of the year, getting colder, darker, grayer etc. Try to stay positive about it. And maybe you can do besides uni also emergency call, a few hours a week. I wouldnt stop with uni right now, see how the next months will go, but thats my opinion, just think what is best for you. I really hope you will shake that 'bored-with-life' of you again, i suggest a bootydance, sorry, couldnt help it to make a lame joke. Anyway hope you will feel better soon.
    Take care :hug:
  5. Abacus21

    Abacus21 Staff Alumni

    No hun - the emergency call taking would be a full time job. It's not just something that I could opt into..

    I'm not really planning to stop uni - just that's how my feelings are at this precise moment. I'm sure that in the morning, the feelings'll be gone, but just had to get it out in the open, really...
  6. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    There are times we all have that feeling Joe. Sometimes it makes us take a step back and see if what we are working toward is what really is the desired outcome. What do you plan on doing with the completion of your degree? Can you see yourself in that career field in 10 years? If not maybe it would be wise to explore your options. It doesn't mean abandon your current avocations, maybe just add to them. Take a few classes that seem of interest to you in other fields as well. Many times a person gets a degree and then they end up not working in that field at all. Don't limit yourself without exploring other areas. Who knows what you might discover about yourself. :hug:
  7. *dilligaf*

    *dilligaf* Staff Alumni

    :hug: joe

    i am here anytime u need to vent xxx
  8. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    Stick with it Joe you have the 3rd year freak out/breakdown to look forward to :laugh:
    Seriously, first year is usually a doddle after that you will be too busy to feel anything but panic.
    Make sure you get out, have noticed you are staying in at the mo; part and parcel of uni is socialising as much as the studying. :hug:
  9. resistance

    resistance Staff Alumni

    Aw Jozzy, I hope things improve as time goes on and you will enjoy uni life. Get out there and go to the parties and pubs, meet people, join in the uni life. Once you get so involved you won't have the time to be bored! The emergency call handling sounds interesting - is that something to do with Samaritans? Big hugs :hug:
  10. Melancholy

    Melancholy Well-Known Member

    Looked a bit into NSPCC...if you volunteer on the phones then you just have to do one shift a week of a couple of hours, you get all the training and don't need any prior qualifications.

    Big hugglesnuggles, love ya dude :smile:
  11. Vitreledonellidae

    Vitreledonellidae Well-Known Member

    :hug: hope you already feel somewhat better
  12. Abacus21

    Abacus21 Staff Alumni

    I have been out - to the pub and whatnot, but most of my flatmates stay in during the week as they've lectures, however we often socialise in the kitchen, card games and drinking and whatnot (tonight, we did shots :tongue: ).

    I'm already getting into the uni-life swing of things, hun :) . We go out to the pub every now and again etc, so all's good. With the emergency call handling - what I mean by that is 999 call handling - it was just a flight of fancy really, to be honest... With Samaritans, I'll still be doing shifts for them when I return home in the holidays :)

    I'm already volunteering with Samaritans hun, in the holidays. To do something else now, when I'll have a lot more work with uni (etc) in the future wouldn't be that practical for me.. I was considering volunteering with Nightline, but it's a pain in the arse to get to from here, and while it's only 3 shifts per term, it's a 14 hour stint... After having done the night shifts at Sams which at my branch, are 8 hours long, I didn't fancy another 6 hours on top of it :laugh: .

    Ta for all the replies guys. :rockon:
  13. resistance

    resistance Staff Alumni

    The 999 operator sounds great - you could give it a go :) Have actually looked into it myself but nearest vacancy going for that is Bristol.
  14. Abacus21

    Abacus21 Staff Alumni

    With it though, it's a full time job, and with uni, I couldn't do it. Pays £14,000 ish, raising to £17,000, which isn't all that much really, seeing as I'd be doing it in London... But as you've all said, uni is definitely the best way to get something done in my life, even if it does mean 4 years sitting here on my posterior... :tongue:
  15. Hazel

    Hazel SF & Antiquitie's Friend Staff Alumni

    You're up early for a student Joe! :tongue: Good to see, glad you are getting out and about, you will love it once you settle in. :hug:
  16. Melancholy

    Melancholy Well-Known Member

    Up early for a student?

    -grumbles at her daily 9am lectures...-

    Chuckle. Just ups and downs, Joe. We'll drag each other through them :smile:
  17. candiz

    candiz Active Member

    are you already fluent in your german? :biggrin:
  18. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    I just saw this Joe, and hope you are doing better..please remember how much you are cared for and valued are quite a jewel...all the best, J
  19. Abacus21

    Abacus21 Staff Alumni

    Nope, I wish I was though .... give it three years, and I hope to be :laugh:

    Thanks Jackie :) :hug:
  20. Spikey

    Spikey Senior Member

    :laugh: Joe, you're probably the only person I know that can speak German ridiculously fluently. Das ist gut ja?!

    That's as far as mine stretches these days :laugh:

    Love ya! <3