I'm bored with life. It isn't fun or interesting. My job is drudgery. Even doing "fun" things with my family on the weekends doesn't bring me any joy at all. I've lived as long as I want to live. I'm afraid of actively killing myself (and I don't have a good method), but I'm ready to die of natural causes. Having a heart attack or a stroke would be wonderful. Boredom and depression are the defining characteristics of my life.