i know there isn't one single thing that will cure my depression on it's own, and im a little young and naive about this, but i think about sex all the time, and i feel like if i could just have some, with another person, then suddenly my life would start looking better. i've never even kissed a person in a romantic way. i want that connection and i don't even know where to start. i feel weary of feeling hateful towards my body. i want to be held and touched and loved. like hardcore. right now. and i want to make some one else feel good. more then anything i think i want that, to look over and see a person happy and know that it was me who made them smile. even just once. it's absurd the things i would do at this point. oh well.