Bozo's Subjugation

Discussion in 'Poet's Corner' started by BelovedDreamer, Sep 1, 2006.

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  1. BelovedDreamer

    BelovedDreamer Well-Known Member

    Sometimes I want to be swallowed whole
    To become
    Just another part of someone else
    Subjugate my personality to theirs.
    I guess it’s just one more form of suicide
    To add to the list.
    One more way to cease to feel what I feel
    As myself
    This raw and lonely being.
    Add it to the laundry list
    Of Exacto knives TM
    Clove flavored cancer candy
    Booze and gateway drugs
    My steadily climbing list
    Of things I’ve tried but said I’d never touch.
    I can tie an awesome hangman’s noose
    Better than I can a tie.
    I want to do it.
    Wholesale destruction
    Of this fragile being who just won’t stop
    Can’t stop
    Thinking, thinking, worrying, losing
    Falling apart and standing back up.
    One of those clown faced
    Punching balloons.
    I had one as a child.
    You smack them across the face
    Tap them lightly on the bright red nose
    And they fling themselves to the ground
    And spring back up
    Ready for more.
    When it seems like all your decisions
    Have gone missing
    Or no longer belong
    To anyone you know,
    What’s the difference?
    I want someone to make all my decisions for me
    I cannot think
    So I will never have to think again.
  2. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni

    (((Dearly Beloved)))

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