Ok, so I wil start at the beginning here. When i recieved a bpd diagnosis I was then given leaflets about it to read. I learnt symptoms and all about it. I went on Google to find out as much as i can about it. What you don't seem to get told is how to deal with it. I struggle on a daily with impulsivity. Impulse seems to be the worst part for me, affecting me in ways I sometimes don't even realise.
Gambling, shop lifting, self harm, shopping, the list goes on. Dangerous driving.
Rewind a little, I was having emdr therapy for cptsd. I had a couple of sessions before coronavirus kicked in and halted therapy. Since then I've been suicidal a number of times and so my therapist referred me on to cmht.
I went to see them for an assessment, and again I was referred on to someone else. I recieved another appointment recently for another assessment and so I cancelled it.
I seem to just get assessed by someone and then passed along to someone else for another assessment. I got fed up with it.
At no point have I received ANY treatment in any form for bpd.
Do people just get a diagnosis and then left to deal with it themselves?
Is there any treatment for bpd?
Are we too complicated for people?
I think I need to challenge my impulsive behaviour but I don't know how to. I'm damaging everything around me.
So 3 days ago I had this urge to buy a laptop that I didn't need or even want. I managed to hold off until yesterday when I caved bought it.
I find that when I have these urges to do something, it overtakes me. I can't stop thinking about it. I research everything about what ever item im wanting at the time. Putting things in my basket and then thinking, fuck it, and buy it quick.
Now I don't really have much money so spending stupid amounts on things I don't need is silly and I know it is. But I cant help it.
My last impulsive purchase was a dog. Again stupid amounts of money. I Was homeless at the time so it really wasn't practical.
I really need and want to change my impulsive behaviour.
Any advice is welcome.
Gambling, shop lifting, self harm, shopping, the list goes on. Dangerous driving.
Rewind a little, I was having emdr therapy for cptsd. I had a couple of sessions before coronavirus kicked in and halted therapy. Since then I've been suicidal a number of times and so my therapist referred me on to cmht.
I went to see them for an assessment, and again I was referred on to someone else. I recieved another appointment recently for another assessment and so I cancelled it.
I seem to just get assessed by someone and then passed along to someone else for another assessment. I got fed up with it.
At no point have I received ANY treatment in any form for bpd.
Do people just get a diagnosis and then left to deal with it themselves?
Is there any treatment for bpd?
Are we too complicated for people?
I think I need to challenge my impulsive behaviour but I don't know how to. I'm damaging everything around me.
So 3 days ago I had this urge to buy a laptop that I didn't need or even want. I managed to hold off until yesterday when I caved bought it.
I find that when I have these urges to do something, it overtakes me. I can't stop thinking about it. I research everything about what ever item im wanting at the time. Putting things in my basket and then thinking, fuck it, and buy it quick.
Now I don't really have much money so spending stupid amounts on things I don't need is silly and I know it is. But I cant help it.
My last impulsive purchase was a dog. Again stupid amounts of money. I Was homeless at the time so it really wasn't practical.
I really need and want to change my impulsive behaviour.
Any advice is welcome.