I was recently diagnosed with BPD, and its apparent that I've suffered with this from an early age and it went undiagnosed and untreated. Making me think I was a horrible person. Recently my boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me because of the way I was behaving and the way I thought e.c.t. This is all due to my BPD. Now theres no chance at all that he will ever give me another chance, regarldess of wether it was an illness or not!. Hes ignoring me, he hasnt spoken to me at all for weeks. I tried to kill myself twice, both failed obviously, the first time he was with me, the second time I was back home and he knew what was happening but there wasn't so much as a peep out of him........nothing. I wasnt doing it for attention or to win him back. I wanted to die, and I still do. I've informed him of my BPD because I wasnt sure wether he wanted to know and he might have found out through someone else and got angry so I diddnt want that. I e-mailed him about it, but I doubt he ever reads my e-mails. If this had been diagnosed earlier I could have saved the relationship!. Now its hopeless. I'm alone all the time now, no local friends, a dad whos distant, a mother who died when I was 9. The only people I have are people who live in different parts of the country or on the other side of the world. I'm so upset.......I want to talk to him on the phone and tell him! but he always cuts me off whilst it rings...My dad still doesnt know I have BPD. I dont know what to do. I want Keith to understand and to know but I dont think he cares about me at all anymore. I doubt he'd even care if I died, I dont think hed come to the funeral..