I think I have been depressed throughout my whole pregnancy and now my baby is two months old and I'm still having issues. I feel as if my children would be so much better off without me. Surely my husband hates me, how could he not? He would be better off without me as well. I just want to crawl in a hole and die. I am so unworthy, unhappy, unloved, so useless and ridiculous. I hurt so so badly. God I just hurt inside so much. I hate this.