I have been through so much shit recently. Had 2 social workers, 2 other workers who I saw once a week, a counselor at school and a teacher who I talked to. All of them have pissed off, they don't care. Don't want to help, not done shit all. So here I am, on my own (Again) not coping, more suicide attempts than ever, more panic attacks, worrying about my BF and failing school. There isn't a day that goes by, that I think "Hey, I wanna live", I just want to step out in front of that car, or jump off that bridge. I don't see the point anymore. I haven't cut for over a month now (Yipee..) but it hasn't helped, It just means I store all my anger up and take it out on someone who doesn't deserve me shouting at them. Watching a show last night, where someone just got a knife and ran it across their arm...Looks so easy, and dammit, I WANT IT! I don't want to fight, I don't want to make it to my 16th birthday. I don't even want to wake up tomorrow I'll just shut-up and piss off now.