Hey there SF. I came here because I needed support, not because I was feeling suicidal. I used to come here when I was feeling suicidal, but I guess this time it's different, which makes me happy because it shows my progress. Now, to the point. I have been in this relationship with another guy (homosexual relationship) and everything was going great. Our relationship survived during my depression and I find in him lots of love and support. He's the best thing that has ever happened to me and I love him and I want the best for him. Let's call my boyfriend... Matt. A few weeks ago an old friend of Matt's started talking to him again. Let's call him John. A few years ago I was friends with another guy that was seeing John. My friend told me that John had a boyfriend but was flirting and getting involved with him. THIS is why I don't like John. Because he betrayed his boyfriend. I think he's a bad influence and this is not so much about jealousy because I trust Matt, it's more about the influence that I fear he might have on Matt. I also fear that John wants to have something with Matt. If he didn't care about the relationship he was in, I'm sure as hell he doesn't care about other people's relationships as well. But like Matt told me, people can change. I change too, so I know. We have been arguing about this issue for a few days now. We always make up and everything's alright, but then the "jealousy" comes back again and I get weird. He forces me to say what's wrong and I end up saying everything that's tormenting me. He broke up with me last night on the computer. Said he needed time to sort himself out. I don't think it's fair, but he just texted me to say that he's coming here later for our big conversation. I cried all night and I barely slept. My whole body ached, my heart pounded violently, I couldn't catch my breath and my head was about to explode. I thought I would depress in the morning. I did. I wanted to text him, but because he said that he needed time I wrote in a little notebook he gave to me. Every time I wrote there I felt like I was talking to him, so that calmed me down a little. After crying a bit more in the morning, I decided that depressing about it won't get me anywhere, so I needed to get up and face it like a man. I sent him a long text about how important he is in my life and begged him to come see me today because it's not fair to break up when we're not face to face. I admit I gave him a hard time yesterday on the computer, so I understand how he must feel. I must fix this. Any advice?