I find it hard to breath my thoughts my mind driving me to a point of insanity !!!! I cant die but i am as good as dead anyway death is the end its over no second chance its cowardly and selfish and hurts those left but why do i need a second chance I hurt and burden those around me anyway on my off days i sit and i hear the time tick by tick tick tick i scream inside i am wasting time others pray that they may have more time i waste it. i just sit here between four walls getting mad do something anything ,i try read but i read the same lines over and over i want to fall asleep i cant sleep thats giving up its pathetic sleeping in the middle of the day i cant sleep i cant i must move i eat but i am not hungry yet i stuff down more junk i feel sick my insides knotted do something BUT WHATTTTTTT its pissing outside i cant go out but what’s the point there’s no where to run my thoughts i cant run from them. I cant watch tv it irritates me what is the point to keeping busy if you don’t contribute to the world if its mearley to occupy your mind i cant be with ppl i want to run and hide but now i cant be alone just make up your freaking mind already you have so much to be thankful for but it means nothing i cant live i cant die i cant breath I am going insane God what do you want from me ????????????