Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by see, Jul 7, 2008.

  1. see

    see Well-Known Member

    I find it hard to breath
    my thoughts my mind driving me to a point of insanity !!!!
    I cant die but i am as good as dead anyway
    death is the end its over no second chance
    its cowardly and selfish and hurts those left
    but why do i need a second chance
    I hurt and burden those around me anyway
    on my off days i sit and i hear the time tick by
    tick tick tick i scream inside i am wasting time
    others pray that they may have more time i waste it.

    i just sit here between four walls getting mad
    do something anything ,i try read but i read the
    same lines over and over i want to fall asleep
    i cant sleep thats giving up its pathetic sleeping
    in the middle of the day i cant sleep i cant i must move
    i eat but i am not hungry yet i stuff down more junk
    i feel sick my insides knotted

    do something BUT WHATTTTTTT its pissing outside i cant
    go out but what’s the point there’s no where to run
    my thoughts i cant run from them. I cant watch tv it irritates me
    what is the point to keeping busy if you don’t contribute to the world
    if its mearley to occupy your mind
    i cant be with ppl i want to run and hide but
    now i cant be alone just make up your freaking mind already

    you have so much to be thankful for but it means nothing
    i cant live i cant die i cant breath

    I am going insane God what do you want from me ????????????
  2. liveinhope

    liveinhope Well-Known Member

    :sad: i want to come and get you :plane: so i can be of more help :hug:
  3. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    I wish I could relieve some of those feelings for you see. It can be so confusing when your feelings conflict with each other. We are here for you hun. :hug:
  4. fromthatshow

    fromthatshow Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    I know these feelings.
    Especially the sleep is giving up part. I feel that way often.
    And I haven't been able to breathe normal in quite some time. My breathing is very very weird; most of the time I feel like I'm choking.