i cant stop thinking about my abuser mainly because i hate her and its taking up too much space in my head i cant just let it go. something i saw reminded me of her and i started panicking in the middle of a target store and couldnt breathe. she hasnt been talking to me but is posting things about me and playing the victim and it hurts even worse. id rather her just talk to me than pretend shes the victim and that i abused her and disrespected her because i never did. is that something that abusers do often or is it just her? and how do i let go and stop thinking about it?