So it's been about a week and a half since I last talked to my ex. He messaged me and I was mad about the way he's been acting towards me lately so we argued and ended up not speaking until tonight. He liked a picture I posted of myself on Instagram earlier today almost immediately after I posted it and I couldn't stop thinking about him after that so I cracked and sent him a message about an hour ago just saying hi and asked if he was doing well. He replied and we had a normal conversation for all of about five minutes before he went back to blowing me off. I was so proud of myself for going as long as I did and now I feel awful again. I'm trying to be friends like he says he wants but he gives me nothing in return. I hate that I can't just let go of it, especially since I am fully aware that he isn't putting any effort into things. I'm still in love with him so it's hard enough on me as it is. I know it's better for me if we aren't "friends" and it's better if I stop trying but like I said, it's so hard for me to let go. I know I'm setting myself up to feel bad but my heart keeps telling me to keep trying. /: