I started playing a online game when I moved away from my friends and was lonely. Tried quiting a few times because the game had detroyed who I was. A month and a half ago, I tried quiting; and it was serious this time. Thats when I got really depressed and those thoughts came. Because I didnt have a distraction. Something to get from point A to point B. I relapsed into playing again but it wasnt the same. I eventually got angry and broke the disk in half. I think Ive quit for good. But I feel like Ive achieved nothing, because I feel the same. Once I get my shit sorted out, if I do, maybe I will revert back to the way I used to be.