I lost my job in a very public and humiliating way. I was arrested for DUI twice in two weeks. Then put on trial by my ex boyfriend for a trespassing charge. He was the love of my life and I am deeply devastated. I lost my scholarship and forced to drop out of school. I sold my house prior to our breakup and lost my life savings. My truck was repossessed 2 weeks ago. Am currently broke, starving, unemployed. Out of options. In a serious amount of physical/emotional pain. Crippling pain. Unable to eat, sleep. I have worked all my life very hard to reach this point of success in my life and over the past year I have slowly lost each and everything I ever cared about. I am too humiliated to even show my face in public. I see no way out and have no hope for the future. I have no where to go and no way to get there. I want to die. But I am scared of committing suicide. I have a suicide plan. But it is still really scary to die. I don't know what to do.