Jolene I'm so sorry you have to endure all of this. The contradictory messages he's giving out must be causing so much pain. If he does have some ongoing personal issues preventing him from having a relationship with you, then I wish he would let you know exactly what they were out of respect for yourself and your feelings. Either way, I feel it is unfair on him to be tugging on your heartstrings in such an unfair manner. But please, don't give up on yourself. I may not be in a postion to tell you what to do or to live your life, but I do know that people do get given another chance. Even if it is tearing you to pieces, just stop and think about it. The world may seem like it is ending and there is absolutely nothing you can do...this is when you need to be strong. You never know how strong you are until strength is the only choice you have. Show your strength. Most people give up on themselves easily. They give up because they feel as though they have tried too many times and it just never works out. But you never know, the next time you try could be the time everything falls into place. Don't waste your life by living it for someone else. Live your own life. The next chapter of your life has not been written yet, don't let anyone else hold the pen.