i hate myself so much. im hideous. i feel like punching my reflection. sometimes its like a blur and other times its like im not even human. im fat. im gross. i wish i wasnt me, that i could hide aw3ay from yhe world forever, a lot of times i do. i dont even look `normal`. even that wouldnt be so bad. i can remember having these feelings foreever even though my mother always said i was. even many people do, i cant see what they see. i would give anything to see myself trough there eyes, if only for a second.