My relationship of 5 years has fallen apart. I am 27 and so is he and we were going to get married. It's not totally over but it will be given all the stress and fighting. If he doesn't end it I will. I want to die when I think of this. I am serious. I can't live alone. I have no one besides him because I don't have that many friends. fortunately, I have a good job that I love and that keeps me going but I am on vacation now because this is the time we were supposed to get married. I wish there was an easy way out. Suicide is NOT easy. But it seems so enticing.