Hi all, I am married to a monster and he has abused me for years. First I thought it was all my fault that is how he makes it appear. That I provoke him to hit me! I forgave him all the time just because I thought people make mistakes, they can change but violent people can never change. they will always manipulate you, control you and make you believe it happens because of you. I believed for many years that I am a curse wherever I go, everything is ruined! but all I did was he wanted but he was never happy. I am so fed up. I have no life, no friends, no family, no one to talk to, that instead of dying by his hands one day, I want my life to end!