I get really bad pains in my face, concentrating on stuff is so hard. I feel like I have lost my identity. I'm at uni, I feel like I am missing out on things, I can't be myself around people because I just feel so shitty that the life I'm living is just not right. I know there is a lot of suffering in the world but I'm under so much pressure from peers and family. I feel so crap right now I can't even think straight to stand up to people's criticisms. I feel like its not my fault. I just feel so isolated, like no one understands my life. I'm just so fed up. I want to escape. Things were bad last year but at least I was fighting through. Now, I just don't have anything left. I never thought I would feel suicidal but I'm starting to wish I was dead, and I'm sort of ashamed, but its so hard. I just wish things had happened differently in the past. I even feel disconnected from my family and close friends now. I dont even feel connected to myself now.