I love with all I have. I just can't help it. I always look for the good in people and I'm loyal till the death probably. I am the girl who is always there with a shoulder to lean on. but it seems like no one knows how to let me lean on them when I need the support. I feel so alone. I hate that one persons actions can lead me spinning down down down to the darkest places. I am a grown up for goodness sakes! I've had my heart broken a hundred times before probably. so why does this hurt so much? just when I think I'm getting to a good place-- when I'm finally feeling strong an confident and willing to let someone in once again I get stomped on. I can't live like this. I don't know what to do anymore. I've got my meds, I've got friends who will listen, I have children who love me unconditionally and just want their mommy to be happy, but it just isn't working. I just want to know why no one seems to want to love me. why am I not enough? what am I suppose to do now? I've been trying for two months to get out of this funk, and yet I still find myself crying and feeling worthless. I have nights where my thoughts are so over powering I am affraid of what I will do. the only thing that keeps me holding on are my two kids, but the longer I am depressed and feeling worthless the more I think they will be better off without me. I dont feel like I could ever be enough for them because I am just broken...and I don't know how to put the pieces back together any more.