No, not really. But that saying is stuck in my head. Though, I wish I had a bucket of awesome-sauce. But really... Has anyone ever noticed that once your suicidal - it never 'actually' goes away? I mean you may be happy for a few months max but the feeling comes back. Every little thing will have you saying "this shitty thing that happened must mean it's time to die!" - and continues in that horrible a superfluous circle. I'm so sick of it, I feel like freaking killing myself to stop feeling freaking suicidal. It's literaly driving me more insane. It's been almost 6 freaking years now, all the freaking doctors don't care - family and boyfriend are sick of it and want me to STFU about it because they can't stand it. && even with this I can't even do it - How much more can someone take - rather, why would someone take this. Life isn't that beautiful anyway.