I think I'm heading to a bad place, it feels that way. I mean, I feel like I'm getting to that reckless point. Things just keep building and I cant seem to calm the anxiety, get consistent sleep etc. I want to go away. to hide, disappear. For everything to just stop for once. For my mind to quit the constant replay of deaths, of abuses... over and over and over. Its all too much for me. Just can't deal with things and work demands are enhancing these overwhelming feelings and I really cant do this.