I get it everywhere. My family, docs even here. "You seem happy, you cant be bad off enough to commit suicide". Well reality check people. I am. "What is so bad in your life, everybody has their problems." Well arent I one of the everybody? I've had so many and way too many years practicing being happy and serene and shoving everything of mine deep down inside for your benefits. I am suicidal and never stop thinking about. Never get the thoughts and urges out of my head. Sorry if I dont fit your mold of a "typical" suicidal person. And something else you might want to know, the more you keep denying it and me, the more I want to become a suicidal statistic rather than being a suicidal person.