Everyone is better off without me. I'm a burdain to my mom who wants to do anythign in her power to make me happy and get me to whatever college I want to go to, which is amazing, but she gets to do nothing for herself anymore. She wants the best for me, which means the least for her. She makes me feel so extremely guilty but she doesn't wanna hear it. She doesn't get that I don't matter. I'm a burdain to my friends who stopped being my friends about a year ago but feel obliged to talk to me now because I'm simply there. They feel obliged to invite me to parties and be nice to me, while I know they'd rather not. I'm always the one walking behind everybody. Just 'there'. I'm a burdain to myself. For cutting, for losing weight unhealthily, for being sad and so tired al the time. For being me.