By the hand of one I trusted

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by minion, Jul 17, 2009.

  1. minion

    minion Well-Known Member

    I have to say being one who deals with suicidal triggers and thoughts on almost a daily basis. You learn how to deal with it and you just do that, you deal with it. But I have to say having your life taken from your hands by another is so not the way I want to go.

    As some of you may know, I've been away for four months to the date. The reason, I had gotten into a fight with a good time friend, and instead of taking the grown-ups way out of it, he snapped. I soon found myself fighting for my life. I don't know what stopped him or what happened, by it wasn't pretty.

    So yeah, dealing with the thoughts is hard, but the nightmares are still the worst.
  2. TBear

    TBear Antiquities Friend

    That sounds so awful - I would think that you feel betrayed as well as traumatized. It is helpless to be out of control - If you kill yourself (no, I think that is a rotten idea) you are the one in control not someone else....even if the result is the same.

    Sorry you had to go through that....

    Glad you are here :hug: