I have to say being one who deals with suicidal triggers and thoughts on almost a daily basis. You learn how to deal with it and you just do that, you deal with it. But I have to say having your life taken from your hands by another is so not the way I want to go. As some of you may know, I've been away for four months to the date. The reason, I had gotten into a fight with a good time friend, and instead of taking the grown-ups way out of it, he snapped. I soon found myself fighting for my life. I don't know what stopped him or what happened, by it wasn't pretty. So yeah, dealing with the thoughts is hard, but the nightmares are still the worst.