hey all, everyone on this site has been such a huge support to me, i even reached my goal of living until november 2007, but now my time has come, i have no friends, no 'real' education, because was unable to finish it due to depression, my family dont care about me(wont even leave me take my medication), i have had no life for the past three years, stayed in my home and never left it, i cry everyday(i dont want sympathy im just telling it as it is), i was a slut, i deserve to die, my family are ashamed of me, ive never liked living , even as a small kid, i was different to everybody else. no one cared. i know i will find peace when im gone, there will be no worrying, no flashbacks, no shame, no rejection, i am a freak. i am a naive gullible fool. i just want to sincerely thank everybody on this site that has used their time in talking to me. This forum has been brilliant to me. i will not be signing in any more , i will die tonight, please pray to god for me, thanx everyone.