Its been a fucked up night for me. I was partly drunk at a friends house, and a lot of people where causing drama. Then a friend of mine got really sick from the alcohol and wasn't doing all that well. I searched my friends cabnets and found some over the counter pain releavers. Half empty bottle. I swallowed all of them. I didnt die. This is the second night in a row I have taken a handfull of pills. I want to fucking die...why cant I just end my life?