do you ever feel that there is this looming rule over your head that Catholics cannot have suicidal thoughts because it is a eternal sin to kill you self and you will not go to heaven? Do you ever feel that it is just an acceptable to have a mental illness like major depression in the Catholic Church? I know I do. I was just wondering what everyone else's thoughts were on this. Is it okay for me to have these feelings and be a Catholic? Sometimes I feel that I can't talk to people at church because they will think I am a devil or something. It really limits my support system.