Thanks for letting me down...again. This goes out to my invisible woman friend as well as all you ADVICE givers on a LET IT ALL OUT section. I don't need to be told that I am paranoid and need to see a doctor,or have it made clear to me that my pain is amusing. Do I. You know what I need,a little bit of love and comfort to offset how depressing my life is. Here is my situation,I have no heating,no hot water,no washing machine,no television.I HaVE,one lightbulb,73 pence to do me until Tuesday,no food,no drink,no-one to love and noone to love me back. I also have a hacker who has gained access to my computer and pretends to be a woman I expressed fondness for in the past.They have fucked up my head over a period of two years.And yes,I am mentally ill and I fear that if I wipe my computer there is the possibility that I may lose from my life someone I feel very fondly towards. To hold on to this life I have to pretend that the person who is causing me so much pain may actually care for me. I am pinning my hopes on whoever is in the shadows as being someone who just went a little bit too far in the past,but underneath it all is a very good human being. Sure I rant and write in word salad at times,but if I don't vent I die.It's as simple as that. I have no future,the only ray of hope is that this fucked up situation can defy reality and deliver against the odds a happy ending,or beginning. This is in all likelihood a statistical improbability. Things do not look good.