I recently started having suicidal thoughts again after not having too serious thoughts about that for a while. The thing that scares me is that the thoughts made me feel peaceful. I feel horrible for thinking of taking my life. I don't want to hurt anyone by doing that. The problem is I just don't care that much about hurting myself. I know suicide isn't really painless, but...I don't know where I am going with this. I feel afraid to share anything like this honestly. It's so hard to figure out who can be trusted in talking about thoughts like this. Does anyone else struggle with sharing information with people? It's a constant burden to me.