Calvary

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  1. Calvary


    Jesus
    Sweet Jesus
    I’ve been in the dark so long
    A shadow of my former self
    who used to be so strong
    I used to think life a gift
    But God this road is long…
    and hard, so hard ~
    I can’t believe how far
    I’ve come from where I used to be;
    The place where I could stand and see
    the beauty of this earth
    and all creation’s worth,
    and all that was inside of me,
    now eroded like the cliff and stone
    all I feel is alone…
    How you hung,
    not patiently,
    but straining through your agony
    And letting go step by step,
    as all those around you who loved you
    wept;
    So I feel like letting go
    And only one like you would know
    the feeling…
    of lack of reason, and of meaning;
    of being at the end
    with no more truth to defend.
    It is finished, I’ve lost my wit
    Into your hands
    I commend my spirit…


    FAL1
     
  2. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Dear FAL1;

    I like this one 'as a poem', but as your feelings I don't like it at all - it scares the shit out of me. Don't leave us, please!!!:sad:

    Please oh please don't do anything irrevocable! Please, I'm begging you now...

    love and hugs,

    least
     
  3. "The fog is rising." Emily Dickinson's last words.

    No one else but me dictates my last wish
     
  4. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I'm not trying to dictate to you, tell you what to do or not do, I'm just begging you to not do anything you can't undo while you're in such a depressed state of mind. I didn't mean to offend you in any way, just afraid for you. I'm sorry. I love you, if that helps anything!:smile:

    least xoxoxox
     
  5. A friend wrote today and said she prays for me - she told me to talk to God - that poem was my chat. (I been doing so for a while, with no answer but being put on "hold"!) How Christ felt was a giving in. When you're stuck, you're stuck. Everytime I think I've hit bottom, it only gets deeper. There's no rising. I'm So GD tired. I'm dying a slow death - I'm not about to break any records in my fam damily with 2 suicides already. Besides, the tenth floor isn't enough of any guarantee of success. The slow death is more imminent. Torture, but sure. I have no hope.

    "So I feel like letting go
    And only one like you would know
    the feeling...
    of lack of reason, and of meaning;
    of being at the end..."

    I used to love life.
    What is it to lose that?!?!?!?!?
    I hate, I hate, I hate
    all that has been stolen from me,
    when I had to conjure it myself
    through my own inner strength!!!!!!!
    YOU CANNOT FATHOM the DEPTH of that LOSS!
    It's my f'n LIFE!!!!!
    I'm FED UP
    I'M PISSED with this life
    I'm pissed with people that say it can only get better
    when it only gets worse.
    I'm pissed with the hopeful
    It's all a curse,
    heads in the sand
    And I HATE when someone else demands
    that I have to join in ~
    may I be forgiven
     
    Last edited: Jan 5, 2007
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