Came across suicide pictures on the internet

[DrowningInTears]

And some videos, but they look kind of fake. I find myself looking at these disturbing images. Gruesome pictures of people who killed themselves. Why? Why do I look at them? I feel sick and disgusted with myself.

 

[whybother?]

i know a website that shows that sorta thing, im the same tho, ive seen sum really grim videos of ppl killing themselves, and tbh i dont even know why i watch them :blink:

 

[Anju]

I've found myself looking at pictures of the same nature...it maybe isn't healthy but I dunno, it's kinda addictive :unsure:

In any case I reckon they are all fake....

 

[whybother?]

well if u think its fake, then its no different seeing sum1 kill themselves in a horror movie is it? tbh i dont find anything wrong with watching stuff like that. yes it may seem disturbing to other ppl but if thats the sorta thing u watch then so wat?

 

[Abacus21]

It is .... a morbid curiousity to look at that sort of thing (or, at least it is with me :laugh: ).

 

[DrowningInTears]

The pictures look quite legit. Its only the videos looked kind of fake, almost a done as a joke. But I'm quite sure the photos are real. Pictures of gross atrocities and suicide corpses.

 

[whybother?]

if u think its wrong and sumhow unhealthy then that makes me unhealthy aswell then? seriously dont think to much into it! ive been doing it for litrally years! yes its not wat ''normal'' ppl wud consider healthy but then again wat is normal? i watch the videos feeling no remorse for the person or think about how its effected his/her family. i dont know why i watch them i just do! its only pictures after all

 

[DrowningInTears]

I look at them and imagine if my body were mangled and disfigured in the way of those photoed. What festering rancid abomination will they see when they find my rotting corpse? What was once a person, now as useless as dirt. Just fodder for maggots and animals. Some of the photos showed corpses taht had been feasted on by wild animals. What horror will they behold when finding my corpse? Will my eyes be rotted out? Will there be bugs crawling all over my face? Will there be rotten guts spilled out?

 

[bluegrey]

Along similar lines I have been for years turning to scenes of cinematically depicted suicide for comfort or a cathartic release. The scene in the 1992 version of "Last of the Mohicans" where Alice jumps to her death rather than face a doomed life of rape and enslavement at the hands of Magua and his Huron Indian tribe.

I also have watched the ending of "Vanishing Point" many times- the final seconds of Kowalski's life before he vaporizes himself in his car speeding over 150 mph into two bulldozers. At the moment before his suicide he is smiling, as if he is glad his out of control life is over.

It's unhealthy behavior but it is cathartic.

 

[DrowningInTears]

ah the allure of death i wish i could have hope to keep living but its not possible in this world i can never have any success. i dont ask for much, just a job that doesnt make me want to blow my brains out and i would be happy. i guess i ask too much. it is wrong for me to want this. I look at these pictures of corpses. Hideous disfigurations. Trying to get used to it. This is what i will look like.