ok so here i am - a little lost. im feeling ok - well pretty good. i bought a new camera the other day - camera of my dreams - i know how sad that sounds but as soon as i got it ifelt good. (i wont in 10 months when i have to pay for it). photography means everything to me - i love it and with this camera i think things will start going right for me. stupid i know and i understand that. Apart from that i dont know. i mean im ok - but know im not right. theres this thing inside of me bugging me and i dont know what it is. i have to make a few phone calls which is bothering me slightly. money is bothering me a lil cos i dont know how much my car will cost to service and mot then i have to do my insurance. i have so much to do today and i just havent done a thing. the most ive done is think about making a list of things to do. i have 2 hours before i have to pick my mum up from work. ive wasted this day off already. just blah!