Here I am, sitting all alone wondering what to do next. It seems as though there is nobody in the whole world who can help me. I have searched and searched for help. I feel so desperate and yet what should I do? The medical profession have said that I am too traumatised for them to be able to help me. It seems as though my life is over. Every day is agony and I don't want to carry on like this. I am scared of dying and yet life is hell. What should I do? Last week I went to see the priest and even he said that he could not help me. I have to live this hell by myself. Most of my friends have given up on me. The pain of living is getting too much for me to bear. I just want to curl up and sleep for ever. Do you understand?