So lately my depression has changed my personality big time. (this is going to be a rant of sorts, so if you don't feel like reading, you may as well exit now.) I can't talk to my parents without feeling irritated, I mean I love them and all, but for whatever reason I can't have a conversation without going off on them. I can't enjoy myself with my friends (I don't feel as bad if I'm drunk, but I still never feel good or enjoy myself). When I'm sober I still act the same way I used to around them, and we hang out just as much as ever, but I really don't care what it is they say or do, I barely pay attention to them, and can't have a serious conversation with them anymore. (before I had no problem have a serious chat with my buddies, but lately I just crack jokes and mess around, can't handle a serious topic) The only time I even feel close to being content is when I'm drunk. When I'm high I still feel incredibly depressed, sometimes it makes me depression worse, other times it helps a bit. With the exception of my friends and the girl I want to go back with, I don't really care what anyone thinks of me. I can't respond to a question quickely anymore (vocally that is), before I could pull out an answer immediatley, now I have to hesitate, and still end up saying something stupid. The only thing I look forward to anymore is getting as drunk as I possibly can every weekend. I have no motivation to do anything really, I basically stopped caring about life. Whenever I meet someone new I feel as if they immediatley don't like me, which doesn't really bother me, I've sort of gotten used to it. Whether they do or don't like me, I have no idea. I feel like the only way I can be happy is if I get back with the girl I was with, but she wants nothing to do with me and I have no idea why, which really bothers me. I could continue on longer, but I think you guys get the jist of it... Any help would be appreciated, thanks.