To be honest, I don't know what I'm looking for online. I'm certain that lots hurting people are finding something to help them, but for me, I haven't been lucky. It must just be me. I feel trapped and it seems like everything I do is taken the wrong way. I stopped talking about suicide. My doctor seems to be carefully listening to my words. I just feel trapped. If I say anything about suicide it turns into talk about hospital admittance. I can not go back into the hospital. Can anyone relate to this?