why i'm such a dork? why i prefer dying than fighting? why i just don't drop death? why i just don't stop breathing? why i prayed to god so he could save them but he just didn't? why i want to see myself bleeding? why my mom goes to cries everynight and tell me everything is ok in the mornings? why people hurt people? why i can't be with the people i want to be? why i'm so stupid? why i'm here? why i'm just me?