I recently joined this forum to try to find from fellow sufferers a healing path or coping mechanisms because I am suicidal. I've become alarmed to learn that I am considered an "antiquity". I am forty one but more or less emotionally stunted in adolescence and yet I don't know if I can actually relate to anyone here under twenty five because of generational divides. I am also concerned that I might (prudently, yes) be suspected as an opportunist preying upon a vulnerable and fragile group because persons of my age and gender (male) tend to be the the persons most inclined. I am a shy fragile basket case once again and to the most severe degree at the end of my rope. Turning forty last year didn't help here in my ageist, perfection demanding American culture. I hope I can be accepted as an abuse survivor and sufferer of major depression, OCD and generalized anxiety disorder and not just someone old, out of the loop and out of place.