Hiya, This is my first post on here. Right now I'm pretty low and dont know how much longer I can go on pretending everything is okay. I tried to kill myself in Nov but changed my mind so didnt go through with it properly. I feel like my life is so pointless. I go to work to pay for uni, and I go to uni so I can get a better job but will that ever make me happy? I'm quite far from home too and I miss my family, I see them about 2 or 3 times a year but thats not enough. My friends know how I feel, well I've told them but they dont fully understand. They seem to think its not as bad as I make out, or they arent taking me seriously. I cant see a future for myself and I'm suprised I have lasted this long. I've been to the doctors and am on tablets to help and have started going to see a counsillor but it just seems like talking about things makes me think about them more and makes me feel worse. I'm worried to tell anybody how I really feel as they'd think I was weird or react badly to me.