Sorry this might be vile. Basically my depression is eating my brain everyday. There is no fun just all misery all day. I don't deserve to be here. I have dissapointed everyone. I want to give up because I don't see the point in fighting no more. If I'm depressed nearly everyday why don't it just kill my brain. That would be much better. Rather than torturing me day to day like I'm in hell. The story would be 'he died of depression'. That way I would not have to kill myself. Any how maybe I should start eating lots of fast food. Seriously, I don't think life is for every person. I'm forced to stay here for my mum. But I'm tired. I'm sorry. But soon I think I will go crazy (if not already). I have to force myself to do everything (shower, shopping, cleaning). Everything is forced and not because I enjoy doing it. The only thing I enjoy is thinking about the location I will off myself. I really do hope that if I die that I don't have to be born again. I'm not going to kill myself any time soon. But I sure wish I could.