Can I hold out?

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by SashaJade, Jul 13, 2011.

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  1. SashaJade

    SashaJade Well-Known Member

    I'm sitting here fighting the urge. I can see all the tablets sat on the counter, I've looked at them hundreds of times. I can see the bag of beers on the floor. I know where my sharps are and its like I can hear them calling my name.

    I know I can't do this, this isn't the right place or time, this wouldn't be fair on him to find me like that.

    But yet I can't stop the thoughts, I keep going to get up and start the process and then I snap myself out of it, thinking only of him, I just don't want to hurt him or else I would.

    I need calm and release, I need all these objects to magically disappear so I can't even contemplate acting on it. But they won't, and I can't even throw them away because they aren't mine.
  2. lancashirelass

    lancashirelass Well-Known Member

    sorry you feel like that hun. Can you at least put them out of site so the temptation isn't there? i am here if you want to talk :hug:
  3. SashaJade

    SashaJade Well-Known Member

    I thought about that, but then I realised when Luke gets back from his AA meeting he will ask me why I have moved them and I really don't want to have to explain everything to him :(
  4. Butterfly

    Butterfly Sim Addict Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    Sam you are strong. You can hold out I know you can. If you need me text me hun. Im holding off too and if I can you can as you are much stronger than me. Love you hunni xxxx
  5. SashaJade

    SashaJade Well-Known Member

    You are sooo much stronger than me madam!

    I just need to fight this for 45 minutes longer until he gets home, and then I will be able to relax knowing I can't harm myself with him around. He keeps me safe.
  6. SashaJade

    SashaJade Well-Known Member

    Time to run and hide before I can't fight this any longer.
  7. Fitzy

    Fitzy Well-Known Member

    What will you do until he gets back?
  8. Butterfly

    Butterfly Sim Addict Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    You can fight this hun I know you can!!!
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