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Can I Please Just Die?

#1
Like why on this fucking earth am i not allowed to die. People die everyday why does it matter if i don't exist. . No I don't need help. No I don't want help. I want to die. This isn't a cry for help to stop it, its a request to help me fulfill my greatest wish rn. plz and thanks
 
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johnDoen

Outsider in the Realm of Lost and Found
#5
Like why on this fucking earth am i not allowed to die. People die everyday why does it matter if i don't exist. If people are okay with it, I would love for someone to help me plan this. No I don't need help. No I don't want help. I want to die. This isn't a cry for help to stop it, its a request to help me fulfill my greatest wish rn. plz and thanks
People die everyday but everyone of them deserves to die soundly in satisfaction and surrounded by the ones they love and trust.

To some people, you matter, either they are family members, friends, colleagues, or just some strangers you helped at least once. By making this thread and an account, you immediately matter according to almost every member and the staff members of this forum. Because of that, we are going make a different plan for you:
  • Get enough sleep every night, about 6-8 hours or more depends on how stressed you are.
  • Get 3 meals a day: breakfast, lunch and dinner. I recommend more vegetables and fruits.
  • Get someone you love and trust or one of these hotlines: the US or the world.
  • Get anywhere close to animals and plants.
  • Get a new hobby (pick randomly if you don't know where to start) or continue with an old hobby.
 

iloverachel

An unwelcomed alien who does not belong in society
#6
I have been in your shoes before, wanting to die on a daily basis because the pain will not heal. Deep down, I didn't really want to die and leave my loved ones. I just wanted to stop the pain and felt death was the only way.

Now I don't know your situation and struggles, so I cannot promise you it will get better, but I do hope you get better somehow. I know it may sound impossible, but maybe one day you will wake up and actually enjoy the day, or at the very least not suffer as much.

Please talk to your friends, a GP, or seek help somehow. You are probably exhausted and emotionally drained so take baby steps.

I wish you the best!
 

1964dodge

Has a frog in the family
Forum Pro
SF Supporter
#8
as stated earlier we are a pro-life site so we can't help you plan or enact your suicide. but on the other hand since this is a suicide site most of us have been or are where you are now. when i came here i was looking for methods. that was over 2 years ago.

i still have most of the same issues but a different perspective. i also learned a lot of new coping skills. not knowing what bothers you i can't say it will get better or not but i know your life can get better if you let us help. in most cases people don't really want to die they want to stop the pain. please hold on life is worth the struggle.

mike...*console*sadhug*shake
 
#10
Hi @Ki**MeNowPlz. Welcome to the forums, we're glad to have you here. I'm sorry you're feeling so bad at the moment.

Of course, as others have said, no-one here would or could help you end your life. I know things may be incredibly hard for you now, and you must be in a lot of pain, but things can get better for you, even if it doesn't feel that way now. There are a lot of people, including on this forum, that have been where you are right now, but have recovered and are glad to be alive.

I recommend you stick around. You can find support and empathy and advice on this forum. Do you want to say more about why you're feeling so bad?

I hope you feel better soon. Hang in there. Sending hugs *brohug.
 

Pirish

New Member
#11
Like why on this fucking earth am i not allowed to die. People die everyday why does it matter if i don't exist. . No I don't need help. No I don't want help. I want to die. This isn't a cry for help to stop it, its a request to help me fulfill my greatest wish rn. plz and thanks
take me with you
 

1964dodge

Has a frog in the family
Forum Pro
SF Supporter
#12
take me with you
dying is a permanent thing that can't be changed. i know you have some issues or you wouldn't be here, but whatever is wrong you can fight it. i have serious physical issues which of course causes mental health issues. yes i do think of suicide, in passing mostly but some serious thoughts. try to think of any positive things in your life. if you ever want to talk feel free to use my inbox i hope you feel better soon.

mike...*hug*shake*console
 

Livelife

SF Supporter
#13
I hope to h*ll nobody sees this.
I just had to write it out.
It's a gorgeous day outside and where am I. In the house. Still in my pajamas in bed at noon. I want to sledgehammer the walls. All I have to do is go into the garage and get one. I have never hit anything in my life or broken anything in anger....
What I really want is to die. Now. Not when I'm 80, not next year, not next week. Now.
I'm so angry about still being here I could scream until my head explodes, And crying does not feel good or help.
I would gratefully exchange my life this moment for anyone who was ill or in danger.
No more family, no more close friends, no more career, can't do volunteer work because of this damn global disease, can't visit with acquaintances, can't travel anywhere. I don't pass the days in technology, don't know how anyway and just spending time reading or being alone no longer does a damn thing for me. Communications with others I know or know via others and have spent time with irl in connected communities and now using just Facebook pass some minutes of a day but it means nothing. Most of these people are emotionally and mentally grounded, have family or loved ones, engaged with their lives and not depressed people. Content and living and exploring their lives. I have to be secretive about this aspect of my life with all of them.
I did spend three days texting back and forth a lot with someone who needed medical and emotional support and direction and answers...I know her via others...it made me feel engaged and of use for a couple of days. Then back to reality.
I have lost the life I had and it aint' comin back.
I can't do this.
I sound like a whiny child.
Where did the person I once was go....It's in the news and studies everywhere you look that isolation and lack of engagement kills people. Why hasn't it graced me with death
 
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Jane65

Well-Known Member
#14
I hope to h*ll nobody sees this.
I just had to write it out.
It's a gorgeous day outside and where am I. In the house. Still in my pajamas in bed at noon. I want to sledgehammer the walls. All I have to do is go into the garage and get one. I have never hit anything in my life or broken anything in anger....
What I really want is to die. Now. Not when I'm 80, not next year, not next week. Now.
I'm so angry about still being here I could scream until my head explodes, And crying does not feel good or help.
I would gratefully exchange my life this moment for anyone who was ill or in danger.
No more family, no more close friends, no more career, can't do volunteer work because of this damn global disease, can't visit with acquaintances, can't travel anywhere. I don't pass the days in technology, don't know how anyway and just spending time reading or being alone no longer does a damn thing for me. Communications with others I know or know via others and have spent time with irl in connected communities and now using just Facebook pass some minutes of a day but it means nothing. Most of these people are emotionally and mentally grounded, have family or loved ones, engaged with their lives and not depressed people. Content and living and exploring their lives. I have to be secretive about this aspect of my life with all of them.
I have lost the life I had and it aint' comin back.
I can't do this.
I sound like I'm 6 years old. Where did the person I once was go....It's in the news and studies everywhere you look that isolation and lack of engagement kills people. Why hasn't it graced me with death
@Livelife gosh I could have written almost exactly the same post except for smashing walls! My life has totally collapsed too.
If there were no coronavirus restrictions what would your life look like?
I would be training my dog, attending several dog training classes and competing monthly. These things wont make my life ok, I felt dreadful even when I had all of this activity, but it was a good distraction from the daily emotional struggle of choosing to live when I really dont want to. Without these activities I am so isolated. I havent got dressed today or got out of bed except to let my dog outside. I have a friend who isv terminally ill. I so wish I could gift her my life.
I'm sorry you are feeling so bad.
Thinking of you xxx
 

Livelife

SF Supporter
#15
@Livelife gosh I could have written almost exactly the same post except for smashing walls! My life has totally collapsed too.
If there were no coronavirus restrictions what would your life look like?
I would be training my dog, attending several dog training classes and competing monthly. These things wont make my life ok, I felt dreadful even when I had all of this activity, but it was a good distraction from the daily emotional struggle of choosing to live when I really dont want to. Without these activities I am so isolated. I havent got dressed today or got out of bed except to let my dog outside. I have a friend who isv terminally ill. I so wish I could gift her my life.
I'm sorry you are feeling so bad.
Thinking of you xxx
Hi and thank you Jane......First off....I'm so sorry to hear that your abilities to be active out there have halted on top of the dreadful emotional struggle and isolation. I am also very sorry hearing about your dear friend. Wouldn't it be great if we had the ability to gift our lives to another...
I retired from nursing and decided last year to get myself up and look for some volunteering opportunities. And then covid happened.
I usually walk everyday in nature for me as much as for the dogs. Even though they have a doggie door just being in the yard does not satisfy them, lol. And I love watching birds. So I'm thinking to look into the Audobon in this area and see about their activities and if they welcome uneducated newcomers.
What a wonderful thing to do with your dog...training and competition. Is your dog a puppy still?
Good thoughts xo
 

1964dodge

Has a frog in the family
Forum Pro
SF Supporter
#16
I hope to h*ll nobody sees this.
I just had to write it out.
It's a gorgeous day outside and where am I. In the house. Still in my pajamas in bed at noon. I want to sledgehammer the walls. All I have to do is go into the garage and get one. I have never hit anything in my life or broken anything in anger....
What I really want is to die. Now. Not when I'm 80, not next year, not next week. Now.
I'm so angry about still being here I could scream until my head explodes, And crying does not feel good or help.
I would gratefully exchange my life this moment for anyone who was ill or in danger.
No more family, no more close friends, no more career, can't do volunteer work because of this damn global disease, can't visit with acquaintances, can't travel anywhere. I don't pass the days in technology, don't know how anyway and just spending time reading or being alone no longer does a damn thing for me. Communications with others I know or know via others and have spent time with irl in connected communities and now using just Facebook pass some minutes of a day but it means nothing. Most of these people are emotionally and mentally grounded, have family or loved ones, engaged with their lives and not depressed people. Content and living and exploring their lives. I have to be secretive about this aspect of my life with all of them.
I did spend three days texting back and forth a lot with someone who needed medical and emotional support and direction and answers...I know her via others...it made me feel engaged and of use for a couple of days. Then back to reality.
I have lost the life I had and it aint' comin back.
I can't do this.
I sound like a whiny child.
Where did the person I once was go....It's in the news and studies everywhere you look that isolation and lack of engagement kills people. Why hasn't it graced me with death
things are hard right now @Livelife i know all this isolation is getting to people. the good news is vaccines are rolling out. it will take months but things will get back to normal again. are there ways you can see friends in person? if allowed you could meet them at a park or house. of course you'd have to stay 6 feet apart and wear a mask.

i also lost the person i was and will never get it back. all i can suggest is what i do. i can't do much but i seek any joy that i can find. i find a little joy makes up for the hard times.

mike...*hug*shake
 

Livelife

SF Supporter
#18
things are hard right now @Livelife i know all this isolation is getting to people. the good news is vaccines are rolling out. it will take months but things will get back to normal again. are there ways you can see friends in person? if allowed you could meet them at a park or house. of course you'd have to stay 6 feet apart and wear a mask.

i also lost the person i was and will never get it back. all i can suggest is what i do. i can't do much but i seek any joy that i can find. i find a little joy makes up for the hard times.

mike...*hug*shake
Thank you Mike*hugJanis
 

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