Can I start a new life...?

With some help from a pschyciatrist and medication, I think in the long term it willl not have it effects anymore. I was better so to speak, but it feels so clinical and fake, it is like it keep me in balance, but I still have the same thoughts. Sure It keep me from thinking it and being less down, but I feel already that the effects are closing down again and that I feel more and more upset and emotional again. Even thinking of death again... Is not good, but things are still the same, only medication is trying to keep my head up, but that is going away already. My moods are down again... Last week I said to my pscyciatrist that everything is fine with me now, but I lied... I hope I do not fall deeply in a black hole... I wish I could go away from here and start a new life somewhere else...

 

I know how you feel, and I kinda feel the same way right now. I don't feel very depressed anymore, but I don't feel happy. Like you said, "it feels fake".

I think what we need to do is try to start a different life. We are now longer the same person before and after the depression (at least for me) and we need to change the way we think. It would be so easy for me to just sink back into the dark world of depression because it's where I'm comfortably (and miserable).

You need to tell your psychiatrist how your feeling, and start a new day.

 

I am going through a situation that has me starting a new life. It is very difficult in my situation because the person that has shattered my mind, has also shattered my self confidence and self worth.

I'm a few days to a couple weeks away from picking up what I have left and moving over a thousand miles away, where I will have no friends. But at least I will have me. From there I'll have to build a new world. I'm scared to death, but I know after 15 years in the place I am what will happen if I don't make a full break.

I have to be as strong as I've ever been. And that scares me. It's a fear I have to face, though. I'm not running away from my life, I'm running to my life.

Be strong.

 

Personally I've been off the meds for some time now, though I should probably be on something. I've been on 3 different antidepressants four times and I have found each time that I still felt like crap, I just didn't care that I felt like crap.

I've been trying to fight off the depression and mood swings with only a multivitamin called Daily Joy, which is high in D and B vitamins. It actually helps more than any prescribed med I've taken but is far from being a cure-all.