I keep thinking if ways to end it still. Overdosing doesn't get me anywhere. I have been driving along so many times and I consider just crashing but I am scarde that it wont work and I'll end up paralysed or something like that or that could harm other people. I was driving today and saw the remains of an accident and there was about 4 cars involved. I considered jumping in front of a car but then didn't go through with it as didn't want some person thinking that they could have avoided it. I have put myself in dangerous situations but that hasn't worked. It always comes down to the pills. When I am in a shop I get all on edge when walk past the pills and I am tempted to buy a load. The thing is I care too much about my family and wouldnt want them knowing what happened incase they blame themselves. So I am planning a way in which will look like an accident, that wont cause anyone else to think it was their fault and that I know will work. There is not much there really. I am really struggling to go on like this. I have thought about electricution in some way but again I am not sure if it would work. It is eating me up inside!