i try, try to be a 'good' friend. Obviously ain't seen that way. I learnt the hard way. Blah blah whatever. Fuck it What am i meant to do? seriously I don't know, i know what would help right now. Was trying to help you but it ain't seen like that is it. Bad friend ain't i? yeah i know it. So fucking pathetic. Why does it hurt so much? why do i love and care so fucking much? Yeah well bring on all that shit. Make it worse. Blame me. To do with something else ..... Why do you affect me like this? why do i so badly wanna take your fucking head off right now. Am i the only one who see's? I'm told im not but it's obvious that i am. That makes me the problem right. Yeah well what do i have to do. Eliminate myself? for you? I would. You know it. I know it. Everyone knows it. Jesus ... need off this fucking site. Had a pretty good day today, then well ... yeah. Whatever.